Monday, August 21, 2006 : Berputus asa; a word that does not exist in my dictionary.
"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were." -Kahlil Gibran
The bitter truth.
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I just discovered something. Something not big. But still something.
There is another way to classify people.
There are some people who get to go to places like England or USA or some shit ass area that's more than 6000km away, overseas, from wherever they live more than 10 times a year.
Then there are the people who haven't been anywhere further than Singapore in their entire life.
Me? I'm sort of in the middle. I've been only as far as Australia and itu pun in std 6. Yeah, call me pathetic. But you know, type B isn't always all bad. It has its benefits which are quite beneficial actually.
You see, type A, travels so frequently to overseas places that the meaning of it is totally gone. Lets say, from 13 years old -form 1-, you've been going to England for at least 10 times a year -don't ask me how, you just managed to fit it in-. Then when you're form 5, you go England again, but there's no special feeling, no distinguished moment of departure and no extraordinary affection.
This is because you get so accustomed to doing it that it had become a ritual to you.
Type B on the other hand. Once they DO get to go overseas -provided they DO, of course-, the feeling is indescribable. The joy that they experience its like so unreal. It'll burst their hearts out in glee. Therefore, causing them to appreciate the moment as it comes to them, cherishing it in their photographic memory space.
And that is the difference between type A and B. Of course, who wouldn't want to live the life of type A? Its like a dream come true. The purpose of this is to make people of type B realise that its not all that bad.
Which is why, if I get to go overseas at the end of the year, I'll be using every darn second to my advantage.
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I just realised something else;
I HAVE COMPETITORS!!!!
Technically, its a bad thing. But really -I'm an optimist-, if you see it from my point of view, it becomes sort of a challenge. No longer am I facing her wall alone. I am also fighting to break the wall with 2 other people, accompanied by 1.
In other words, its a 3 vs 1 situation. Seriously, I've got no one helping me. I'm all alone. All tactics, discussed alone. All plans, discussed alone. On the other hand, my rivals, both of them, are sharing 1 helper.
And the 3 of them are sort of related by friendship so -obviously- they'd rather have either one of them win than me. Now, how unfair is that? And to add oil to the fire, the 3 of them are in the same form as her! Unfuckingbelievable.
And it was at that moment that I discovered that that I realised; I was going to have to fight for her. Hell, no way I'm giving up. Or wait. Maybe fate is pointing me into that direction? Oh, I'm so confused. Please, give me a sign already!
Maybe she would be happier with either one of them than me in the first place? If that happens, I'm backing out. Or....;
Maybe Destiny's design for her did not have me in it? Maybe Destiny didn't want me to interfere with his design for her so he created an additional 2 rivals? Well, fuck you Destiny!
I'm sticking to my rights!
What say you?
